I always have something to say or at least that’s what my fiancee said to me this morning before he left for the office. His actual words were ” I need to stop off at the hardware store after work” and when I asked why, he replied “to pick up some bolts to shut that trap of yours”. I thought that was pretty clever. But all joking aside, he was telling the truth. My parents would certainly be in agreement. And they would be right, I generally always have something to say about everything. Now that you know that, I’ve decided to keep my blog going and instead of it primarily being pretty witty and…cancerous, it will be pretty witty and whatever else I may fancy at the time. Don’t misunderstand, I’ll still update on my cancerous situation and I am writing a book about my experience, thanks to all of your encouragement but I’m realizing more and more that it’s only a piece of my story. I’d like to think I have more to say.
Since my transplant, I have become a morning hiker, an afternoon couch potato, and an evening contemplator. All of which I imagine sound riveting and contradictory, I’m sure. I started walking daily a few months ago in hopes of rebuilding strength lost from the last four years of chemical cocktails, radiation waves, and intruder cells. I started off walking around the block, which I was excited about because a year ago I would have needed Jax to pull me the three quarters of a mile. (Now I only use him to drag me up hills.) It didn’t take long for a mile to turn into two and even three on most days. I’ve convinced my dad to join me and Josh on weekends. It turns out I enjoy it and am having a great time exploring. Except just one side note, make sure you have the right gear to explore. Like make sure your pup has a fluorescent pinnie or bandanna so nearby hunters won’t think he’s a deer. Bundle up when it drops below 30, but not so much that you limit your range of motion. (Reasons why the Pillsbury dough boy probably wasn’t training for a marathon.) So in my afternoon couch potato mode I was able to consumer report review what to wear and landed on cold gear and a tri-climate jacket. Making those purchases means serious business. Yay for new hobbies and investing in me.
That brings me to my other crazy lately. I am all about setting and achieving goals and planning. I have so many planners to prove it; one for teaching, one for my wedding, one for life. And I love it, possibly because I love paper and stickers and highlighters and binder clips. Like I’ve mentioned before, I’m an office supply junkie who likes personalized pretty stationary. Clearly things that matter to all adults. Isn’t it adult to have stationary with your name on it. I also spend my mornings updating a to do list that I push through in the am so I can couch potato in the afternoon. My couch time is all over the place. I have watched series after series since my hospital stay to just watch (Girls), to stop living under a rock (The Sopranos and Game of Thrones), for the sake of nostalgia (Party of Five). It’s been interesting and somewhat thought provoking. There is a lot of really great tv and just as much mediocre tv and some downright bad tv. But for now, I get to enjoy my couch potato time and plan to Hallmark Christmas movie every chance I get. It used to be a snow day treat, so I fully intend to take advantage.
And my evening contemplations are lists of all things I want to do, intend to do, hope to do and do. Most of the time we race to get through the day and don’t reflect on what we actually did. I laugh because we so often say sorry to people when we don’t get in touch and explain it away by saying “life got in the way.” I think we should apologize to ourselves for thinking life got in the way instead of being present or making plans to enjoy it even more. So that’s what I have to say today!